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I would be sad because you left me all alone.

I would be sad because the lies that you had told.
I would be sad because I got left by a girl that I adore.
I would be sad because the love I had before.

I meant what I said when I said I would settle down with you although I know it’s not something that you were asking me to
do. 
And I know we are young but we won’t always be, so marry me; lets not be that predictable young couple changing, moving on. 
But I can tell by watching you that theres no chance of pushing through. 
The odds are so against us; you know most young love it ends like this.

I would be sad because you left me all alone.
I would be sad because the lies that you had told.
I would be sad because I got left by a girl that I adore.
I would be sad for all the love I had before.

I meant what I said when I said I would rearrange my plans and change for you.
You know me; I’ve always been the kind with easy confidence. 
Confident enough to honestly beleive that nothing out there stopping me especially not someone who’s not loving me.
Now listen here I told you I could live on with out loving you. 
I was bluffing then, but it seems that just might have been the truth.
Well my dad told me, “One day son, this girl will think of what she’s done and hurting you will be the first of many more
regrets to come.” 
And he said, “If she doesn’t call, then it’s her fault and it’s her loss.”
I say, “It’s not that simple see, but then again it just may be.”

I would be sad because you left me all alone.
I would be sad for the lies that you had told.
I would be sad because I got left by a girl that I adored.
I would be sad for all the love I had before.
I would be sad for all the love I had before.

lucky enough to be the only fan for the random 2:00a.m. Gut Ruckus reunion show in the space station.  These guys have been jamming for almost ten years.  Twas a good night.  I grabbed my old Canon 1d mk1 for the first time in a long time and took some sequence shots of Aaron, Jon, and David.  Funny to shoot with a camera that is over ten years old, weighs more than all of my camera equipment combined, takes a photo smaller than a current cellular phone, and is worth less than 3% of its original price.  but what is money any way?

sometimes you wish you would have just died in your sleep…  Sometimes im stricken with dreams that are images that i wished i would never see again.  I find it funny that most of the images are things i thought were my most beautiful memories at the time of their occurrence.  My brain has been an enemy lately.  It is MY brain though.  Why am i not in control of my own thoughts?  I dont know if my brain hates me or if my hatred for myself is just part of it.  Either way, i woke up this morning and was really sad because of what i experienced while i was asleep.  I am tired as hell because i feel like i was alive during the dream sequence.  I am rambling like a crazy person or just like the person i am.  I wish when i went to sleep i didnt see anything.  

I drink from time to time but i have never had the desire to do drugs until recently.